In follow-up to my latest post “Reminders of An August Afternoon“, I sat down tonight to watch Take This Waltz, and was left with the following questions chasing each other around in my mind: In no particular order…
Do I choose people who I know will leave me?
Do I choose people I know I will eventually leave?
Is having multiple lovers really the answer to this, or the cause of more of these feelings of something missing?
What kind of relationships will my daughter have as she begins to grow up and out into the world?
What does lasting love look like?
Have I set a bad example for my daughter in that I have yet to find someone with whom I can find and sustain a loving partnership with?
Things I know about what I want for myself
I really don’t want to share or be shared
I don’t want to be with someone controlling
I don’t want a relationship without passion
I need intimacy and emotional connection
I enjoy sex often
The more I love someone, the more sexual I want to be with them
Physical affection is important to me
Intelligence turns me on and its important to me (it’s always the first or second thing I say when I am asked to tell someone why/how I find someone attractive)
I like someone who can walk in both worlds; someone who likes the finer things in life, but also is down to earth
I want a man who is a man, and not a boy living in the body of a 40-year-old. I do not want to be a grown man’s mother.
Honesty and integrity are valued highly by me, and I need them from anyone who would be a potential long-term partner. I give it and expect to receive it.
My health is very important to me. I want someone who values their physical health and their emotional one
What’s good for the goose is good for the gander. If you think it’s good for you, and only you, and expect something different for me, you are sadly mistaken.
Does any of this even exist?