I’m not even sure where to begin, but suffice it to say things have gotten way interesting as of late. So much so, that I hadn’t even realized it has been nearly three weeks since I posted.
First, where last we left off I was being heavily tempted into Scarlet Letterdom by my sexy running friend. In addition, and of less interest, but much less inner cricket complication, I was being pursued fairly persistently by two other men: one who is significantly older than me, and the other who is now several states away. I really didn’t feel so inclined to even write about them, but I suppose it’s worth mentioning because, honestly, I am convinced that the Universe is having a good laugh at my expense.
In all initial retrospection, I find that I really have zero desire or interest in the first man, also a runner. While in my 20’s and even into my early 30’s I always dated men who were 5 years plus my senior, I found that as I moved into my mid (and now late) 30’s that this proclivity changed. I’m not sure if men my age finally caught up to me, or I finally became less dismissive of them, but in any case, I really don’t want to date someone who is significantly older than me anymore. And by “significantly older” I mean he has almost 20 years on me! All of that aside, I have absolutely no sexual attraction to him. Our kids used to go to school together, so what I initially thought was just pleasant conversation between friends, inadvertently turned into flirtatious maneuverings on his part. He’s asked me out several times now, and I have found polite ways to turn him down. However, he keeps pursuing, and I’m just always so bad at the “Sorry, but I’m not interested” rebuff. I figure I’ll just keep saying no until he gets the drift. I hope this eventually clicks for him.
And then there is the second guy who I have actually been friends with for awhile, albeit casually. He lived here when I first met him, but recently moved several states away for a new job. I’ve always been on the fence about him. I’m not sure what it is really that keeps me indecisive. I usually am pretty all or nothing in this respect.
He’s super intelligent, witty, not to hard on the eyes at all, but…he’s much shorter than me. I like my men tall. I admit it, I do. They have to be at least my height (5’8″ barefoot), otherwise it just feels awkward to me. I suppose that is the real clincher for me. Of course, one of my very hottest romances was with a man who was 3 inches shorter than me, so how can I really rule it out?
He was mildly dropping occasional hints of interest when he was living here, but never made a move, and since I was always unsure about my own interest in him, I didn’t either. Now that he’s moved away though, he’s become far more direct with his flirtations. I’m still iffy on him, and it would be worth checking out if he lived here still. Sorry dude, you’re 3 states away now, so an instant checkmark off on my list.
So, although there have been others players in the game, isn’t it always the way that the one I have the most interest in is the one I should steer clear away from. What is it I said about not wanting those kind of complications? Well, I’ve decided to listen to the head on my shoulders, instead of my cute pink little one, and avoid the drama and story juggling that comes with attached men in very closed relationships. Oh, I’ll continue to flirt with him for sure, and I definitely plan to keep up the sexting, that’s far too delicious to stop doing. I just can’t take it any further. Sometimes you have to “check yourself before you wreck yourself”, am I right?
Now that I have you all up to date on the “behind the scenes” from the past several weeks, we can get down to the real juicy stuff.
You know that old adage “Ask and ye shall receive”? Well, let’s just say I am getting what I asked for, and then some!